But when you’ve worked hard all your life, and you have a spouse that’s done the same, and you’ve got goals that you’re working for and you think you’re covered, then you find out that it’s not happening, you’re not covered, or so to say. The help that you were planning on that you were paying for all those times, it’s not there. It’s very depressing.
The pain is just not mine, wrote CrescentCityRay – and it is not. Listen to the echo as another story of post-Katrina mental health continues.
I became stressed the minute I found out my home was gone. I saw it on the — on TV in Alabama. And they had an up-in-the-air shot, and they went over Long Beach Oaks. And I seen that every house there was gone in that little area. So, I knew mine was gone too. And that was upsetting.
But, you know, we still thought Nationwide was going to take care of us. So, I really didn’t get that depressed over it. It was stuff. It wasn’t our life. I was happy that John and I and my little dog had gotten out okay. But once Nationwide started messing around, I got a suspicion that they were trying to get out of it because of the way I was being treated by them. I asked them when they went out to review it to — when they sent people out, I asked them to let me know in advance, and they never did. They would call me after it was done. It looked like they were avoiding me. And that was upsetting.
But when I got the letter of denial, I went into depression. And my husband, he was worse, and he — I felt terrible, and then I would see him and how he was reacting to it, and it was just very depressing for me for myself.
I didn’t know what we was going to do. I didn’t have the answers. I cried. I had a lot of headaches. I went around crying all the time. I didn’t know what I was going to do. We was living for the moment. We had no future, no plans, no anything.
And we kept hoping that Nationwide would reconsider. We kept hearing on the news that some of the insurance companies was reconsidering here and there. We hoped they would. But after a couple of years, we finally — I did, I got the feeling that, hey, they are not going to do anything unless we sue them and go through a court of law, and do what we got to do. So, that’s — I felt like they owed us, and I was very depressed. I had no future at all. I still don’t know where
I’m going, four years later.
And I feel they owe me. And it was very depressing. And I was crying all the time and had severe headaches from crying. And it just made me very nervous and tense and short-tempered
with people that I loved. And I didn’t like the way it reacted on me…
I have anger because I keep wondering why that happened. I have anger because of what they put my husband through. Us living in that little FEMA trailer for six months was like a torture chamber. To him it was like a jail cell. He was claustrophobic, and it was just — it was horrible to watch a man his age and in his health condition have to live the last few months of his life in the conditions he lived in.
And I feel like that Nationwide was — they may have not hurt his health as much as his depression, but they took enjoyment away from him. We couldn’t enjoy anything. We didn’t even feel like going to see a movie. We was just too depressed to enjoy life at all. And he died like that.
And I feel like that was Nationwide’s fault for not taking care of us the way they should have. I think if we had money to work with, we could have went on with our life. We could have planned, we could have worked at it, and he would have been happier. At least he had a goal, something to look forward to. But the way it all happened, all he had was more depression ahead of him. And then his health started failing him on top of all that. And I don’t know if it was due to the depression or just his health conditions, but it sure didn’t help.
And seeing him go through that, and then losing him depressed me terribly. And I had a lot of tightness in my chest over months before my surgery. I thought it was just nerves. I don’t know if it was nerves or since I had to have a heart problem, whether it was from my heart, but it was a lot of tightness and aching in the chest.
And I just felt bad. I couldn’t sleep at night. I cried all the time. And like I said, headaches. I got a headache right now just from going through this today. But when you’ve worked hard all your life, and you have a spouse that’s done the same, and you’ve got goals that you’re working for and you think you’re covered, then you find out that it’s not happening, you’re not covered, or so to say. The help that you were planning on that you were paying for all those times, it’s not there.
It’s very depressing. And I cried a lot. I couldn’t stop crying. That’s why I got help from the doctors, so that I could talk to the doctors to make sense with them when they were trying to tell me something about my husband’s condition and that type of thing.
Today SLABBED salutes Helen Politz – this is her story, told in her own words.
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